In simple black & white

Did anyone actually read what I wrote? I mean really?

I'm going to say not, as everyone is now saying that I've retired from paintball. Obviously, you didn't read what I wrote. Granted, it's a long piece so I'm willing to understand that people only glean what they want out of it. I shouldn't expect any different really, nobody seems to read anything I write anyway and they never have. They go off of what someone else told them I wrote, and that's usually nothing like what I said in the first place. Or if they do read it, they take one sentence out of context, blow it out or proportion, and claim that's all I said. All I can say is it's a good thing I keep backups of my works.

So, here you go. Cut and dry.

I'm not retiring from paintball. I never said I was. I said, and I quote "I can not, with a clear conscience, associate myself with a sport that condones by silence any kind of violent behavior". This does not say "I am leaving paintball forever". It says I am not associating with a sport that condones by silence bad or violent behavior, and in my opinion encourages it. Not playing paintball and not associating with an industry selling a prefabricated image to a player base that follows the lead of disposable heroes are two different things. I also said it's not fun playing paintball, and that's still the case.

I am no longer doing the Web Dog shows or most any video production for the near future. They have a life of their own now, and I'm no longer doing anything with them.

I am no longer seeking to fund the show out of my pocket to create an archive site. There are a few players who have themselves, so the videos are still obtainable.

To those who have sent e-mail or posted, I thank you for the words and kind thoughts. But I'm not dead, I'm not committing suicide, I'm not burning myself in protest in the streets of a major city. I'm just removing my website, and not planning on doing more videos in the near future.

I'm just getting out of the way of the juggernaut determined to blast itself into the immovable object of reality. And when it happens, when some kid is killed or severely injured due to player stupidity / industry ignorance, I'll try not to gloat when I say "I told you so."

I also understand that EVERYONE has an axe to grind, and I have people that don't like me. Fine. Don't put words in my mouth, and I won't put words into yours. I don't expect everyone to like me, but I expect you to at least have the courtesy to ask me to my face for clarification if I manage to confuse you. It's not that uncommon, I'm told I'm confused a lot. You want to spread hate or rumors, I can't stop you. But if you claim to be my friend, the least you can do is contact me.

And as far as people agreeing or disagreeing about my motivations or the problems I pointed out, good. If people talk about the problem, that's good. If people actually do something about it, that's even better. I've been told I've started revolutions before, so let's start one.